We are in Chicago on a trip just Brent, the kids and I to try and escape from all we have been dealing with the last 17 days. I can’t believe today marks two weeks since Ethan left his earthly body to be with our Jesus. Most of each day since the funeral feels like a normal day, until I see a stroller, or a pregnant woman. It’s then that I remember just 17 short days ago I was going into labor not thinking anything other than we will be bringing home a baby a lot sooner than planned. I don’t cry as much as I did just a few days ago, but I do have many sad moments when I remember we had Ethan in our arms days ago. Last night as I laid in bed with Colton as he slept I did find myself crying looking at him wondering what it would’ve been like to watch Ethan grow up and get to stroke his head like I was Colton’s in that moment. I began to cry feeling sad on everything I am going to miss out on with Ethan. It makes me wonder. Will I get to raise Ethan in heaven? Will he be my same baby boy just without pain and perfectly healthy? I wish I knew the answers of these things and that I knew EXACTLY what heaven holds for me. Mommy misses you my angel Ethan! 👼🏻
My blog is a journey through our unimaginable pain, grief and healing. We welcomed Ethan into our world on November 17, 2017 only to find out the diagnosis of Trisomy 18 at birth that would only give us 4 short days with our precious boy. We are learning to live again and find our new normal.
Trisomy 18 awareness
Monday, December 4, 2017
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